"like i do" (The Millennial Club): Songs from Spirit

A Waking Message — Songs from Spirit

I woke up with the melody and a few phrases from the chorus: "... I cannot pretend I don't love you like I do..." I've listened to this song dozens of times and love the saxophone solo, so I recognized it immediately. I still had to look up the lyrics to get the full picture.

Today’s song upon awakening: “like i do” by The Millennial Club

The Millennial Club - like i do

Extracting the message from this one was harder than usual. It's a love song, and with my last relationship just ended, romancing someone new isn't at the top of my list. But I've found a new love and appreciation for myself.

For a long time I thought love was something that came from another person. The high of a new relationship, getting lost in it, the ache when it disappears. I confused the source of the love with them. What I understand now is that they were the door, not the source. They opened me to something that was already alive inside my own body. I can't feel their feelings. I can only feel my own. I'm the source of the love I feel. The love I was looking for was always mine to feel.

That's been liberating.

Today's message: no one can love me the way that I love me. I'm already whole. When I'm ready to share myself with someone else, it'll be from a place of wholeness.